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Winter 2008 Viewpoints

No More Shame
I found the fall Quarterly both relevant and engaging, and especially appreciated “My Struggle with Panic Disorder,” by Kara C. Baskin ’00. I, too, lived a life crippled by panic disorder starting from a very early age.

For me, the breaking point came on Christmas night 1999 when I found myself pregnant, and trapped in a too-small house with too many family members and a feeling of total and complete helplessness. I had nowhere to go, nowhere to hide, and no way to talk myself out of accepting the disease that I had spent years shrugging off.
After four of the longest and most sleepless days and nights of my life— when the very effort of living seemed more than I could bear—I sought the help of a psychiatric professional. And after many, many sessions of therapy, and the blessed introduction of Zoloft, I learned to live with my anxiety.

Was it easy? No. Was it worth it? Yes. Am I ashamed to admit that I need a chemical to survive? Never. I would be more ashamed if I continued to let my disease affect the people I love and who love me.

In fact, less than a year after I began my own therapy, I found myself bringing our then five-year-old son to his own behavioral therapy, something I might not have realized was so important had I not finally addressed my own issues. After three years of therapy for obsessive-compulsive/ anxiety disorder, we felt comfortable adding Zoloft to his mix of therapies. Now, at age thirteen, he is an incredibly wonderful and happy young man.

It is never too late, too early, or too shameful to seek the therapy, and yes, perhaps, the medication, that you need to live a life free of fear and anxiety.

Mary Nelligan Robbins ’87
Northborough, Massachusetts

Be a Government Watchdog
I was encouraged to learn that incoming students read a book on climate change, Elizabeth Kolbert’s Field Notes from a Catastrophe: Man, Nature, and Climate Change. This is an important topic about which everyone should be educated.

It is important to learn the science behind climate change, including its causes and effects. However, I wanted to remind [people] that it is also important to follow what the government is doing to remedy the problem. Environmental issues are largely affected by government funding, and without money to fund research (for alternate sources of energy, for example) or legislators to write laws to modify the way things are currently done, it is much less likely that we can alter the course that scientists are predicting.

Please write to your senators and representatives to support climate change issues.

Sharon Sigethy Coughlin ’90
Boonton Township, New Jersey

Safety of Nanomaterials
We are proud that MHC women are leading the way in nanotechnology research, but we share concern with environmental health advocates that nanoparticles may pose substantial risk. Currently the commercial use of nanomaterials far outpaces research on their potential dangers. In 2006, only 4 percent of the approximately $1 billion federal budget for nanotechnology research was allocated to examine their health and environmental effects.

Scientific studies show that the small size of nanoparticles permits greater access to body tissues and organs where they could cause harm. Studies in animals indicate that some inhaled nanomaterials pass easily from the nose to the brain and from lungs into the bloodstream. Alarmingly, these particles are already found in many everyday consumer products like cosmetics and food storage containers, but their safety is still in question.

Unfortunately, the U.S. government has a poor history of regulating potentially harmful technologies and allows many toxic materials—including asbestos—to be used in consumer products. This new generation of nanotechnology requires a precautionary regulatory framework instead of outdated laws that allow harm to our health. New regulations on consumer products containing silver nanoparticles, passed in 2006, are a good first step, but we should not stop there.

We are proud that MHC women are leading the way, but we will be more proud to hear that they are assessing the safety of this new technology before celebrating it. We agree that nanotechnology has exciting implications for medical and scientific advances, but believe that the risks of this new technology must be investigated.

Let the scholars and faculty at MHC take the lead on researching the safety of nanomaterials and making sure that we learn from the tragic history of asbestos, rather than repeating it.

Leise Jones ’01
Jamaica Plain, Massachusetts

Margaret Byrne ’04
Northampton, Massachusetts

Danielle Connor FP’06
Danvers, Massachusetts

The authors are current and former staff members of Clean Water Action, an environmental organization working to protect people from harm caused by toxic chemicals.

Don’t Tell, Don’t Talk?
I thought I’d share a (possibly) unanticipated reaction to the “Bulletin Board” story [fall] on the Jolene Fund for students whose lesbian orientation becomes known to their parents, who as a result cut them off. The following appeared on my husband’s Internet site www.thebirdman.org: “… Maybe the Jolenes would have found it cheaper to provide students with some tips on keeping their mouths shut. But then they wouldn’t want to encourage unnatural behavior, now would they?—Birdman”

My own reaction: If a young woman knows her parents won’t be able to handle the news after sounding them out on similar issues, then she can either remain quiet about it (after all, she might change her orientation later, even though it doesn’t feel like that at the time) or make a big deal of it. To make a big deal of it in that case makes it almost certain her funds will be cut off. (It is possible that her parents will want to provide her with an alternative education somewhere else, where she will be less “under the influence.” Maybe it would be only fair to give them a chance. And maybe a young woman who has reached this point is asking for help by the act of telling them.)

In any case, if things end up “exploding,” she is relying on the college (or rather, its benefactors) to bail her out. She is putting the college in the position of advocating freedom of sexual expression. There are some who would say that if the college is going to do that they should make sure the student knows “both sides” (much like the Darwin vs. creationist controversy). Maybe there should be a kind of “family values” curriculum depicting the various (real) dilemmas we encounter out here in the world, and the difference it makes which paths we take.

Lenora Castles Bryant ’64
South Pasadena, Florida

 


Corrections

In “Doing Well by Doing Good” in the fall Quarterly, Sheila Lirio Marcelo ’93 was incorrectly identified. She was entrepreneur-in-residence at Matrix Partners, a venture capital firm, when she developed Care.com and from which she secured funding. Before that, she was vice president and general manager at TheLadders. com.

Due to a typographical error, an incorrect date was given for the MHC tenure of Marjorie Kaufman. She was an English professor here from 1954 to the 1987–88 academic year.

  • thinking4myself

    I am responding to Pamela Thiele's letter to the editor, Born Gay, Sister. In it she says "one doesn't choose to become gay. One is born gay."


    Although ones sexual identity is shaped at a young age, long before we hit puberty, I have seen no evidence that our genetic code determines our sexual identity. Being born homosexual or heterosexual, for that matter, implies that environment plays absolutely no role whatsoever in shaping our sexual identity.


    Consider the following:

    1.) not one of us have memories of our first few years. My earliest memory is around age 3. If that is true, how can a person claim to be BORN gay or straight?


    2.) From the perspective of a mother: when she delivers a baby she does not deliver a "gay" or "straight" baby. She delivers a baby. period. Boy or girl. There is no indication in young infants that the child is homosexual or heterosexual.


    3.) Many of my homosexual friends have told me they believe their environment has shaped their sexual identity.


    4.) Another friend of mine said his mother says there were signs of him being gay as early as 2 years old. He doesn't discount genetics but he also doesn't exclude environmental factors.


    5.) Some people have left Mount Holyoke confused about their sexual identity.


    I would agree that we have no control over who we are attracted, man or women, however I cannot blindly accept when anyone says that they were BORN gay (or straight).

  • I'm all for learning about "global warming". However, when people start talking about government funded programs to combat something that isn't even proven, I have a problem with that. Where is the "government" going to get the money to pay for all of these "climate change" programs?


    From you and I.

  • The Jolene Fund receives donations from individuals who may or may not be MHC alums and who may or may not be members of Lyon's Pride. As a result of negotiations with the Development Office, the college administers the Jolene Fund. The Fund has raised nearly $90,000 since 2001. The college gets to claim these donations when applying for grants, etc. that benefit the entire college with no benefit to the Jolene Fund. The Jolene Fund did not have to set-up a separate 501(c)3 organization to administer the Fund. This is a classic win-win. I can tell you with full certainty (as the project manager who initiated and implemented this project), that the Jolene Fund would exist with or without the Development Office's participation. However, I am happy to say that it was nice to see the college "Do the Right Thing".

  • C. F. Gagliardi

    In addition to all of the insightful and well stated comments above regarding Ms Bryant's letter, I find most intriguing her implication that the college's benefactors are being asked pay for the education of of a woman whose choices they might not agree with. I was under the impression that the money in the Jolene Fund came mainly from private donors giving SPECIFICALLY to this fund and the alumnae group Lyon's Pride (Editor please correct me if I am wrong). I do not believe that those who donate either to the fund directly or to the Lyon's Pride have in any way been deceived about who, exactly, their money is going to be assisting and why. Of course, it is ridiculous and sad that this should even been an issue, but the fact remains that those who feel uncomfortable financially supporting a young woman's choice to be herself are not being asked to unknowingly do so. It is a small point, and perhaps an unimportant one in the scope of the wider problem of homophobia and bigotry, but it is one worth mentioning none-the-less.

  • Anne DeAcetis

    I'm glad to see so much (justified) outrage at Ms. Bryant's (extremely) irrational and (overly parenthesized) lecture at students who unexpectedly find themselves disowned by, let's face it, BAD PARENTS WHO SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES AND WHO SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD KIDS IF THEIR LOVE WAS GOING TO BE QUITE THAT CONDITIONAL.


    Who would have thought a Mount Holyoke alum would side with parents who would withhold education from any child, male or female, over sexual orientation?


    I'm pretty sure she doesn't think of her love for her big-mouthed husband (whose opinion got top billing, hmmm) as a "phase." The gay women I know struggled for years to recognize, discover and accept how--and who--they can love in this life. These girls were hardly lining up to throw fits and get thrown out by their own families like garbage. Now THAT'S something to "make a big deal" about.


    How ignorant, how condescending and how compassionless. How embarrassing for you, Ms. Bryant.

  • Elizabeth Callaway

    March 8, 2008


    I write in reply to the letter from my classmate Lenora Castles Bryant ’64 regarding the Jolene Fund. The Fund contributes tuition for lesbian students whose parents stop paying when they discover their daughters’ sexual orientation. Ms. Bryant thinks the students should keep quiet and stay in the closet, not “rely on the college (or rather, its benefactors) to bail [them] out.”


    This attitude ignores today’s environment for lesbian students. Moreover, it is insulting and trivializes a deeply painful, destabilizing experience.


    When we were at Mount Holyoke, lesbianism was unmentionable. Lesbian students were automatically expelled in disgrace. Discovery meant lost friends, family, career opportunities, even freedom (when women were sent to mental institutions to “cure” us). Lesbianism was considered a sin, a sickness, or a crime; above all, it was shameful. As fair game, lesbians stayed closeted, and our social world was secret and protective.


    Now, in a more welcoming society, it’s almost impossible to remain in the closet. How normal to visit gay blogs, email “out” gay friends, reveal too much on Face Book! Maybe, during break, buddies drop in who just can’t keep a secret (because they don’t see the point). Maybe the student is spotted entering a gay club (no longer in a hidden part of town).


    Most important is the need to be oneself. What a horrid experience, either to stay in the closet always, a fake personality, or to be out at college, and return home pretending to be straight. These are choices that no one should have to make any more. In the modern context, they are not only agonizing, but absurd. How more natural and healthy to come out!


    These women have lost their families’ love and support and almost lost their College. They deserve our respect and compassion. They have mine.


    Sincerely,

    Elizabeth Callaway, ‘64

  • Corinna Yazbek

    I'm writing in response to comments from Lenora Castles Bryant and John Bryant about the Jolene Fund. First of all, Mr. Bryant's reaction is only "unanticipated" because he champions all sorts of other rights and freedoms on his website – why not champion our right to pool our money to support an MHC student whose parents have painfully disowned her because of who she is? As someone who claims to have his views and opinions criticized and scorned, it's disappointing that he can't relate to a student's experience of being shunned by people she trusted to always love and support her.

    Overall, the Bryants' views smack of blaming the victim. Somehow they put responsibility on the student for her parents' reaction to her sexuality. I've known students whose parents have read their journals, listened in on their phone calls, read their mail and as a result


    discovered the secret their daughters tried desperately to keep from them. The Jolene Fund isn't only for students who willingly – and courageously, I might add – come out to their parents, but for those who perhaps tried not to "make a big deal of it."


    It is not the responsibility of queer people to "not make a big deal" of our sexuality, because – well, what does it even mean when we do? Does it mean we go on dates? We talk out loud about our crushes? We


    cry when we get our hearts broken? Are these things are only for straight people? Or for four years do our MHC sisters have to pretend that they are not full human beings? If you have ever had to hide a part of who you are, you know it takes a toll on you. Not having all parts of your life integrated becomes exhausting and does not foster


    genuine connections with the people from whom we have to hide ourselves. So then the parents lose too; how sad for everyone.


    Lastly, there is the question of what Ms. Bryant is advocating in terms of "'family values' curriculum depicting various real dilemmas we encounter out here in the world." Homophobia (and transphobia) are real dilemmas that exist both on the MHC campus and in the real world.


    In terms of choosing paths, I hope that queer students feel strong enough with this support to choose the path that is right for them, vs. the path of least resistance.


    Thank goodness the Jolene Fund is there as a support mechanism for the child of a family in crisis. Lenora, it's a safety net to help ensure


    that other students get to enjoy the full Mount Holyoke College education that you and I did. It's a wonderful gift, and I hope many alumna continue to support it.

  • mhaq

    Ms. Bryant’s "Viewpoint" is so full of stereotypes and untruths that it is astonishing. Ms. Bryant is way behind the current intelligence on all of the following points: her suggestion that students should hide their sexual orientation since it’s “probably just a phase,” that sexual orientation is caused by being “under the influence” of someone or something (in this case it’s the “all women’s colleges make you a gay” argument), that lesbians who out themselves are “asking for help,” and that the students whose parents “explode” and deny them the rest of their MHC education have caused it themselves and are asking to be “bailed out.”


    Then there is the incorrect assumption that MHC does not advocate freedom of sexual expression (has she not heard?!) It is condescending to suggest that the college should make sure the students know the real dilemmas we encounter out in the real world: the discrimination and judgment, subtle and not so subtle, that women will face coming out as lesbians is known to us all long before we even decide when and where it is safe to be ourselves.


    Ms. Bryant is suggesting that sexual orientation is a “path” that students might be persuaded not to take if only they understood, but it is no more a choice then say, eye color.


    Dana Kowal Beauvais '85

  • mhaq

    All great spiritual traditions teach the interconnectedness of all human life—indeed, of all forms of existence—and thus it is always with immense pain and sadness that I read the periodic letters from alumnae who deride the struggles of gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender people, most recently in the form of a sarcastic criticism of the Jolene Fund.


    As a human being, I am connected to GLBT people who suffer the prejudice directed against them; I am also connected to the letter writers, whose harmful speech against GLBT people can only be born out of their own deep suffering.


    The reality is that we are all one body, one organism, seeking light and healing. What we do to ourselves, we do to others; what we do to others, we do to ourselves. Separation is an illusion.


    So I write this letter out of compassion for myself, and out of compassion for my sisters and brothers on both sides of this divide. Let us all take care of our suffering, so that we may cease to inflict it upon each other. Let us learn ways to see ourselves in the face of the other.


    Linda Johnson Astur '94

  • mhaq

    As a recipient of the Jolene Fund, I would like to share my story with Lenora Bryant '64 ["Viewpoints," winter 2008] and emphasize that no one can predict disownment. Also, if a student is faced with obstacles beyond her control, I truly believe that Mount Holyoke and many other private institutions should assist that student to finish her studies.


    First off, keeping one's mouth shut has its limitations and consequences. Why would someone want to further perpetuate silence in the lesbian community by not being comfortable in her own skin, or in her own family? How can one grow as a person when part of her identity is silenced or denied?


    I received funds from Jolene because my sister (who was not a Mount Holyoke student) is a lesbian. I graduated last May and the summer before my senior year I got kicked out of the house along with my sister. Regardless of how I identify sexually, my mother disowned me as well. I did not expect my mother to kick us out and we had nowhere to go. Her kicking us out was not a result of my sister coming out that day. It was three years of my mother getting tired of knowing that her daughter is a lesbian. She thought it was shameful and a disgrace to her as a mother and to her family and to everything she worked hard for.

    My entire family is damaged simply because of ignorance and hate. The person that I looked up to and revered did not want to pay for my final year at Mount Holyoke. It's not like she couldn't afford it; that wasn't the issue. She'd rather lose her child/children than accept that her child is a lesbian. What does that tell you? Do you honestly think that someone would want to keep her mouth shut with such hate circulating within the household?


    Although I faced so many obstacles to get to where I am and graduate college, I am even more certain of the importance of staying true to oneself. We should not tolerate hate in any form. A student is better off disowned and comfortable with who she is than silenced and hated in her own home. Once someone is accepted in any way (friends or school officials), she is empowered to make things better for herself and fight for that. That is a valuable lesson that Mount Holyoke stresses to its students.


    Anonymous MHC 2007

  • mhaq

    I am disappointed to learn of the College's change of focus regarding

    the Gorse [educational] program. While a Bright Horizons center may suit childcare


    needs, I would be (pleasantly!) surprised if they met the academic and


    financial responsibilities of Mount Holyoke College and the Psychology


    and Education Department.


    Susanna Teemer '98

  • mhaq

    I've never written in before about the state of the Quarterly, but I was so interested by the winter 2008 issue that I felt the normal rules of apathy need not apply. First, I found myself crying over the plight of the Cambodian people after reading "Unshakable Activism" and the work being done by Nancy Woodward Hendrie '54. Then, within moments, I found myself laughing out loud at the opinions of Pee Wee the pet guinea pig of Professor Gary Gillis in the article "Professors Feature Their Creatures." Perhaps I've missed something in the other issues, but this is the first time I can remember such a light-hearted tribute in the Quarterly to the less serious side of existence. If anything, the "fun" made the "sad" that much more poignant by comparison. Thank you for the tears and the laughter.


    Judy Berberian Ichkhanian '86

  • Elizabeth Babbin '96

    J., I just wanted to tell you that I am so sorry for what you have gone through. It sounds like you and your sister have each other to lean on, but still, you are going through an ordeal that must be incredibly difficult. Congratulations on your graduation and best of luck to you and your sister.

  • J

    This is a response to Lenora Castles Bryant's article.


    As a recipient of the Jolene Fund, I would like to share my story with Lenora and others who advocate on her behalf to emphasize that no one can predict disownment. Also, if a student is faced with the obstacles beyond her control, I truly believe that Mount Holyoke and many other private institutions should assist that student to finish her studies. First off, keeping one's mouth shut has its limitations and consequences. Why would someone want to further perpetuate silence in the lesbian community by not being comfortable in her own skin, or in her own family? How can one grow as a person when part of her identity is silenced or denied? I received funds from Jolene because my sister (who was not a Mount Holyoke student) is a lesbian. I graduated last May and the summer before my senior year I got kicked out of the house along with my sister who is a lesbian. Regardless of how I identify sexually, my mother disowned me as well. I did not expect my mother to kick us out on July 14, 2006 and we had no where to go. Her kicking us out was not a result of my sister 'coming out' that day. It was 3 years of my mother getting tired of knowing that her daughter is a lesbian. She hated the idea that she had a lesbian daughter because she thought it was shameful and such a disgrace to her as a mother and to her family and to everything she worked hard for.

    My entire family is damaged simply because of ignorance and hate. The person that I looked up to and revered did not want to pay for my final year at Mount Holyoke. Its not like she couldn't afford it, that wasn't the issue. She'd rather LOSE her child/children than accept that her child is a lesbian. What does that tell you? Do you honestly think that someone would want to keep her mouth shut with such hate circulating within the household? Although I faced so many obstacles to get to where I am and graduate college, I am even more certain of the importance of staying true to oneself. We should not tolerate HATE in any form. A student is better off disowned and comfortable with who she is than silenced and hated in her own home. Once someone is accepted in any way (friends or school officials), she is empowered to make things better for herself and fight for that. That is a valuable lesson that Mount Holyoke stresses of its students.


    "Your silence will not protect you"~Audre Lorde

  • Nicki Nicolo '76

    I am one of the other alums who worked with the Development Office to establish the Jolene Fund. I wanted to do this for many reasons. First and foremost, was out of a sense of community with the young women who are students at my alma mater. I believe we need to care for and take care of one another.


    I also believe in the power of the thoughts first expressed by John Locke. Our inalienable freedoms and rights do not stem from religious institutions or laws that try to enforce rigid adherence to some authority that does not respect humans. No one has the right to impose their belief system over someone else's rights. There's a long history of wars and abuses that have occurred when one group choses to suppress another group. We are still living in a world full of death and strife caused by hatred.


    And while parents may have the power to cut their children off financially, the outcome is destructive and short sighted. I am pretty sure my parents would have disowned me as a college student for following my heart and nature. However, thirty years later, we have made peace and come to understandings. We have all grown.


    I would argue that love and caring do not deserve condemnation. If you have different views, then practice your views without hate and without rancor.

  • Donna Albino '83

    This is a response to Lenora Castles Bryant's letter. I am one of the people who worked with the Development Office to establish the Jolene Fund in 2000, and I have talked with several students who have been cut off financially from their parents. In every case, the student was not the one who told her parents about her sexual orientation. Most of the time, the parents found out by opening and reading her mail without her permission. It's a crime, in more ways than one.


    It is extremely difficult for a young woman under the age of 25 to be declared financially independent of her parents so that she can qualify for financial aid without their support. Establishing a different residence, filing tax forms as an independent, even getting married is not enough. We alumnae have been around long enough to see generations of young women lost to Mount Holyoke's educational opportunities because their parents won't support their daughters. I'm glad we have been able to save two women from sharing their fate this year.

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